Stammering has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.
My earliest memory is the first day of school when a teacher asks me to stand up and introduce myself. I stood up.. not realizing something very different was going to happen, I knew what my name is BUT.. why won’t it come out???
I somehow force it out, a couple of kids laughed. I felt embarrassed and it became a part of my memory. A bad thought actually.
And after that, a small fear attaches itself to that memory, and every time I had to speak there was that fear which I had to deal with.
A stammerer’s life is a nightmare that I was all well aware of.
It’s not a disability so there is very little public awareness, and my life goes on trying to maintain my self-respect and dignity. Dreaming of the things that I would have done differently, interviews that could have gone so cool. Women with whom I could have flirted. There are so so many things I felt every day that I could have done differently.
McGuire will give me that opportunity and I was willing to
1st: Accept my stammering as a part of me.
2nd: Willing to be disciplined and work on it.
3rd: Stammering becomes an excuse for all that I was not in life, it gave me an escape and peoples sympathy. I had to let go of this and be willing to take control of my life.
I am still working on my Speech, having lots of good days and very few bad days. Discipline is the key here. I look up to my coaches and wish to surpass them soon.